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An Honest Reflection That Is Stuck In My Head...


I went for some dark-time ball tonight, and I found that I couldn't get this outta my mind...


A conversation I recently had that was drawn upon observation from a previous night before has lived at the forefront of my thoughts. There are so many reasons for this, but the two permeating ones that won't stop rattling around in my head are the strength of this person and the absolutely beautiful nature of her heart.


In the days since, I have been consciously diving into thoughts about it all, and have really been struggling within myself to understand the underlying depths of the emotion to which I witnessed. Not the emotion within myself, but rather with what I was seeing. I was truly spellbound in the moment, and genuinely aware to the point of being spurned into silence to simply listen to what I was observing.


Have you ever been so taken by a situation that it took deep hold of your senses, and drove you into a perplexed sense of amazement? Something that is elusive to your perceived notion of understanding? I ran into that the other day, and it still has a hold of me.


A tight one!


I'm fumbling within myself, in the mash of ways that I know, to grasp some part of it. I just can't come up with any way to properly characterize this. It's like breathing in the fresh air of the goodness in humanity while seeing the invisibility of an intention brought to life right in front of you in a tangible way. The kind of thing that makes you believe.


Listening to this most selfless portrayal of a very hard gesture through letting go in the first sense of renewal...despite knowing the pain-felt accompaniment that comes along with it.


My goodness...

Night mode on my camera for this image made it look bright out, but the first photo was the realistic representation of the darkness outside...


While sitting there in my simple disbelief, I hit the pause button on time, to slow it into stillness, so I could better absorb what I felt privileged to be in the presence of.


Quite aware of the moment...


While doing that, one of the silent thoughts that snuck up on me was how it made me look into myself and contemplate my own direction, and to try to find a better sense of self. Looking inside of myself, I pondered the question of whether I am being as good as I can be, what that means, how to answer that question, and how to proceed with what I find within it. I then became aware of myself doing that, and it made my appreciation grow.


I was completely fascinated by the depth of strength with the simultaneous softness in the beautiful love. Each seeming equally boundless. That led me to more thoughts of wonderment, even though I keep getting stuck trying to make sense of it all to myself.


I was truly taken aback, and it has left me in full contemplativeness...


In the days since, I have wondered if I am putting too much into it, but then I realize that even in that thought, I still have it in my head playing in repetitive motion, so that tells me that it is an honest reflection.


Becoming helplessly engrossed in it all, even though the entire notion remains elusive to me, the one thing that is clear, and quite very concise, is the gratitude I was filled with.


That gratitude flooded inside me, and continues to build in a paralleled rate within my mindfulness towards it.


I got levelled by a notion I have come to express to others that is rooted in my lessons from Michelle...


"Never underestimate your impact on those around you!"


In this instance, I am going to be left in thought provoking contemplation for quite some time...whether the perplexed elusiveness to what I witnessed, or the search to find a better sense of self within. I feel quite fortunate to have found my way into all of that, and that I will be able to carry it with me on all of my wandering journeys ahead.


It sure is crazy how magik can appear from outta nowhere if you simply take the time to pay attention to that around you...


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